Some people have been saying I am unrealistically positive on my site when talking about my diabetes.
I disagree because I’m being honest. I will acknowledge however, that I am in a different place than many of you. I used to be where some of you are now. I was there a long time and never dreamed I’d “get out”.
So here I share my story. Here is how I went from sick to happy. I am so glad all of those years are long behind me.
I was 11 years old. I had just began middle school and was super excited about being more grown up. My sister who was only 3 years old had been diagnosed with diabetes just months ago. I remember taking a science test and being unable to concentrate because I was so thirsty and tired. I knew I had diabetes like my sister. I went home and tried to do my homework. I still couldn’t concentrate. I had some of my Halloween candy and told my mom to check my blood sugar. She was cooking and said, “In a bit, i’m making dinner”. I urged her to do it right away. I was 401. Time to grow up.
I was a good kid. I made good grades, played soccer, softball, basketball, and ran track. I found a way to only fill half of a test strip and therefore decrease the number on the screen. So, my parents thought I was 100 when I was really 300. That Christmas I had an oral surgery to fix my gums because they were sliding off of my teeth. I felt sick all of the time and often missed school.
I had barely managed to graduate high school with my advanced diploma but, 2.8 GPA. I had to quit the varsity soccer team because of my uncontrolled diabetes. I had hairline fractures on my shin bones and knee pain which was caused by my constant high blood sugars. I lost a scholarship to a big university for soccer. Something only a few people know about because of how ashamed I was that I lost it. A good friend had just died of cancer and I cried at least once a day and wondered if I was next.
I now attended a community college. September 11th happened and right before Thanksgiving day, 2 more friends from high school died in a car accident. I got really depressed. My weight increased dramatically. My blood sugars were ALWAYS high. I didn’t know how to get them under control. My family didn’t even know how to help me. I was failing classes at school. I passed a terribly painful kidney stone. I didn’t think I could take anymore of life.
I continued in a sickly state for quite some time. I felt like I was quickly deteriorating and as if I would die soon. I would eat and drink without giving insulin because I felt I might as well just give up.
I read the book called “The Alchemist” by Paulo Coelho. This made a huge impact on me. I HIGHLY recommend it.
I found doctor Mercola’s website which taught me the important basics about health. I began taking the doctor’s recommendations for diet and lifestyle and began losing weight. My cholesterol levels improved dramatically. I began checking my blood sugar at least 5 times a day. My mood also improved big time (no more depression!). Neuropathy pain in my hands and feet disappeared. Cramping in my calf muscles did as well.
Around this time I also stumbled upon the science of quantum physics which proves the mind is truly a powerful thing and as I began changing my thoughts, my body’s ailments and emotional state began to drastically improve.
I continued steadily from this point. My goals were to make small changes over time and just stick with them. By the time I began dating my husband in 2006 I was a MUCH better diabetic. I looked and felt different and I was happy to have my A1c below 7%. I had a lot of emotional residue from my painful journey with diabetes, though. My husband helped me with this by simply listening to me and by staying with me. I did better and better with his support.
For the past 2 years my A1c has stayed very close to or under 5% . I feel strangely happy for the first time since I was 10 years old. I still struggle with the diabetes but, I always feel confident about how things are going and the decisions I am making. I know what to do and feel lucky to have educated myself to this point. A lot of it has been learned through trial and error and more error than anything else, but at least I learned.
I never thought I’d marry someone attractive and healthy and active but, I did. I was told I couldn’t get pregnant but, I had twins.
Diabetes is so frightening and ongoing that it often scares people into submission. We get overwhelmed with day to day life and fall into depression. Checking glucose, a physically simple task, suddenly becomes really hard to do.
I continue now trying to improve with a few basic truths for keeping my diabetes under great control.
I follow these five habits and only look back to see just how far I’ve come. Now it is your turn.
Remember, you deserve to be healthy and it isn’t too late to feel better!