My most memorable thoughts about diabetes for each year with diabetes, starting with the first year as an 11 year old:
1994 “I can do this. No, I won’t go to diabetes camp, I’m just like everyone else, I’ll go to regular camp.” “Ok, regular camp was fun but I thought I was going to die”.
1995 “Alright, I don’t like this at all. I’m not sure I can do this.”
1996 “I can’t do this! But I don’t want anyone to know…” “I just want to be normal”.
1997 “Recovering from a gum grafting surgery. So this is what happens when I try to be normal. Not fair.”
1998 “I wonder what boys think about my diabetes?”
1999 “I hate diabetes.”
2000 “Feeling out of control. Help!”
2001 “The way things are going, I might as well give up.”
2002 “I can’t do college while panicking like this. I can’t even pick up a pencil.”
2003 “Can I turn my life around? Is it possible? I can’t live like this anymore.”
2004 “Ooooh…alcohol…what a nice way to forget my problems!”
2005 “Alcohol is useless. Trying to do better. Trying to do better. Trying to do better.”
2006 “Eat this not that. Do this not that. Change is hard. Super hard.”
2007 “Wow, I’m doing better…Just keep going.”
2008 “A1c is down. Weight is down. I can run a 5k every day. Getting married this year. Happiness is totally up. I can’t believe this is my life now.”
2009 “TWINS! Must. Have. Sleep.”
2010 “We’re not poor, we’re just struggling. (Can I borrow a $5 for groceries?)”
2011 “Hello DOC!”
2012 “I can do this! Wait a minute…I am doing this.”
Life ebbs and flows. When you’re on the up, enjoy it and take steps to safeguard your future. When you’re down, know that you will be back up again. Just don’t give up hope. Giving up hope prolongs the process between going from down to up and we don’t want that. Don’t give up hope.