Zoloft Killed that Loving Feeling
I’m weaning myself off Zoloft.
I’ve been on it for about a year and a half now. It has one major side effect for women-a sharp decrease in libido. Others say it completely wipes it out. I guess it depends on the person and how much they are taking. Zoloft is an extremely popular drug in the US for anxiety and depression. I started taking it for anxiety and a PMS disorder that I have and have been getting myself off because that one side effect is just too much. I mean, I didn’t marry my husband so that we could just be best buds who partner up to raise children together, ya know?
But, getting off Zoloft takes time because withdrawal symptoms are harsh. The times I’ve missed a dose or two I’ve felt like a squirrel on crack (I dunno, just picture what that must be like) and had major nausea on top of that. A friend of mine recently pointed out the brilliance of this drug’s natural marketing ability. Stopping it causes anxiety and depression which is what it treats in the first place. There doesn’t seem to be any major health risks associated with taking it so it’s easier in the short term to just keep taking it. Except if you’re a female, of course, and not a nun.
I can’t tell you how embarrassing it is to write publicly about this. I do so because I think it’s possible that this drug has been responsible for some divorces or major relationship woes out there. Because if you’re not aware of this side effect, you really might think you no longer love the person you’re with. I mean, this is what separates us from our friends! Seriously, without the awareness of Zoloft’s side effects your physical symptoms which manifest as “don’t touch me” might tell your logic (and that of your partner’s) that “I’ve lost that loving feeling, time to move on”. I’ve always been one to research whatever medication I take to be aware of side effects so luckily for me it was more a matter of working around the issue with a patient and understanding husband.
Honestly, the way I’m working around the issue now is getting off this darn pill. I’m down to 35mg and while I do this, I am finding it harder to cook, clean, and get out of bed in the morning (in other words, doing things I dislike). I also worry about my anxiety raising my blood pressure, which has been high in the past and therefore a problem I realistically foresee having “any day now”. But, I feel more like myself (I’m a naturally moody person, perhaps I should embrace that fact and just go with it) and I’m finding that exercising to the point of dripping with sweat is the best remedy for my negative tendencies. Exhaustion from working out is calming so, it works as long as I just do it.
I’m all for a holistic lifestyle but also getting help when it’s needed. Right now I need off this and if shoving my behind out the door every other day for a 5k run is going to help, then I will just have to suck it up. So far so good!
One more thing, do I regret taking Zoloft in the first place? Um, not really. I was having panic attacks and not parenting my young children as well as I could because I was paranoid of what might happen to them. Taking this for a while helped me not feel so afraid and live life without so much hesitation. My whole family benefited from this. But I think I’m ready to live without it.
Anyone else have experience with this?