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Yesterday we kept stuff in, so today let’s clear stuff out. What is in your diabetic closet that needs to be cleaned out? This can be an actual physical belonging, or it can be something you’re mentally or emotionally hanging on to. Why are you keeping it and why do you need to get rid of it? (Thank you Rick of RA Diabetes for this topic suggestion.)
I am a sentimental fool. Let me tell you about the lancet device I use. Well, first let me explain that last year I was using a multi clix device and I really loved it (ooh and I know I want to try the fast clix!) But then my dog chewed it up and I went back to my original 1994 (don’t know what brand, it has long rubbed off) lancet device. It’s the one I’ve mostly used throughout the years. I’ve tried new ones, agreed the new ones are better, and then my weirdo self went back to the original.
Why? I think using this clunky, loud, and more painful device makes me feel like I haven’t had diabetes for 20 years. There is a sense that 20 years hasn’t actually gone by. It makes me feel younger because I was 11 when I started using it. It makes me feel like there is some consistency to my diabetes even though I’ve been on a roller coaster in terms of how I manage my diabetes and even though my body has certainly been affected by diabetes. People who are now long gone have laid eyes on this device, probably somewhat associating it with me. The sound is familiar-it makes a horribly loud and clunky (not clicky) noise. I’m appreciative of how this device hasn’t broken in 20 years despite all the times I’ve dropped it. See? I’ve got my silly reasons.
I’m hoping to tear away again and use a highly superior lancet device. In the meantime I will stick with this one out of some strange sense of comfort and practicality (because I rarely change the needle, I still have plenty of them for this device). I just need to let go. Accept some final things. Like, that I’ve had diabetes a hella long time. And that’s ok. Because I’m ok.