I’m barely squeezing in DSMA’s Blog Carnival entry for this month which asks the question:
My formal answer is…my health coaching business! It fits into my life and personality perfectly. And though I love being with my kids, I do think I’m one of those moms that needs a part time thing to stay sane. Not to mention, the way the economy is these days…I can totally get why both parents often work to make ends meet. We are no different.
Now for my secret, locked away answer. My kids will be turning three in June and I look forward to them talking. By now, yes, they are technically behind. But, luckily, that’s the only set back that can be observed AND…I feel like it’s right around the corner. My son talks all the time only you really can’t make out much of what he says. It’s time for him to stop using “twin gibberish” or “twinspeak” and start using English or Spanish. He knows both. Son, just pick one. I beg you.
My daughter on the other hand doesn’t say much. She likes to make a lot of noises. She can imitate any noise (or action for that matter, she could be a very talented mime). She can do any animal sound, even an elephant (an advanced one, in my opinion) and the other day I heard her repeating her leaptop’s alphabet sounds. She can pronounce the sound for every letter in the alphabet. I’ve heard her say well over 50 words by now. But she doesn’t like repeating them. It’s like she doesn’t want to talk, yet. Weird, because mom is such a blabbermouth and clearly, it’s so much fun. Anyway, I think she has a pretty wild sense of humor. Yesterday for example, Alex encouraged her to say “mama” instead of “papa” when calling out to me. She can say “mama” and she does say it, but she thinks it’s funny to say “papa” because I’m like, “No! I’m mama!” We asked her to say “mama” quite a bit and you know what she did? She spent the rest of the evening calling me “Sysy”, instead. You see what silliness I’m dealing with here?
Anyway, the reason that this is something I’m really looking forward to is not just because it’s convenient and fun to have them talk but mostly because deep…deep down I sometimes wonder if my kids don’t talk yet because of my having diabetes or not breast feeding them long enough or not feeding them the right stuff or just doing something wrong. I usually understand that this happens to plenty of kids and I know it’s common in twins, but on certain days, I find myself scared that somehow I’ve ruined them. Perhaps with toddler TV shows or by somehow being an inadequate mom.
It’s often an asset to be the type that analyzes situations to death but when it comes to parenting I think it drives a person nuts. Surprisingly, it’s been helpful to write this post out. It has helped me realize I just want to focus on making the most of this year by doing things with them like finger painting, howling at the moon, running in the grandparent’s yard, playing with cousins, dancing on the balcony when it rains, and hopefully, when they are ready, having long conversations…about anything.