The secret to happiness. I’ve heard wise people say that we don’t find happiness, rather we simply be happy. And I always scoffed at that because I thought, “um…easy for you to say, you don’t have diabetes or this or that or blah blah blah…”
And recently, despite being really short on finances, despite having type 1 diabetes, despite living in a world that feels more scary every day, I’ve been really happy.
And I suddenly understood that thing about just being happy. How many of us think that once we change jobs we’ll be happy? Or once we lose weight we’ll be happy? Or once we find the one, we’ll be happy. I did all three of those at one point in life and was hit over the head with the realization that life felt the same because I was looking at it through the same gray tinted lens. I went back to thinking I’d be happy if I had this or that and so the search for happiness just went on and on.
I also used to think I’d be happy if I could have well managed diabetes. Just now, I sat looking at my kids happily squealing over a praying mantis (and petting it no less), and thought, why do I manage my diabetes well now and didn’t back then? It’s not that I work harder than I used to.
You see, instead of trying to find happiness lately, I just be happy. And it works. And while I used to try to manage my blood sugars, I now just manage them. Just like I am happy no matter what happens. I manage my blood sugar no matter what it takes. Being happy means making the choice to be happy, even under difficult circumstances (which are bound to be present).
Well, managing blood sugars, for me at least, means choosing to manage my blood sugars. Managing my blood sugars even if I don’t want to eat right, even if I don’t want to give a shot, or check my blood sugar. Even if I don’t want to make any of the sacrifices that non-diabetics don’t have to make.
Some say they don’t want to work that hard, give up that much, or strain to be happy while feeling hurt or anger or pain. But what I figured out was that hurt, anger, pain, and hard work are inevitable and a part of life. Those who try to escape these feelings are simply relocating them, losing control over their lives, and not even reaping the benefits.
So try choosing to be happy. And choose to manage your blood sugars. You know what to do. You know what it takes. You’re worth it. And it’s not nearly as hard as dealing with the consequences of not doing it. Ironic, but true. And am I always happy and always managing my diabetes well? Nah. That would be non-human of me.
Now I know this was a big simple post and general and all that. I’ll get in deeper soon, I promise.